I am a lighthouse. Worn by weather and waves... January 18, 2023

 

Another chemo treatment in the books.  I am not keeping exact tract, but we are into the 20s, like 22.  I am nervous as hell until the end of January to see how the liver tumors are doing with the monthly pump fill.  I am very hopeful and glad that I feel ok most days.   Most of my battle is sugars now so I need to keep driving my diet towards the elimination of excessive carbs, but the every other week heavy steroids do a number on my blood sugar.  It didn't get into the 300s yesterday, but still stayed elevated most of the day.  

My problem is that many times I do not feel like I have eaten unless I have had a small amount of starch (pasta, rice, bread, etc...).  I know it is a learned desire, but the cells also need glucose to create energy, but I am sure they can derive some energy from meat and veggies.  

Diverting back to treatment, I don't like having to travel to NJ for all our treatments, but they are really knowledgeable in pump maintenance and they are all so pleasant.  The trip I think is beginning to weigh on everyone Tiffany mostly.  I mentioned yesterday that it creates this two-week void where we just auto-pilot until the next treatment and then further between scans.  If it wasn't cold, rainy, yucky and flu/cold season we would probably get out more, but I'm not sure about that either.  Not sure I want to.  One of my issues is that socialization always involved alcohol and that really is a bad choice for my diabetes.  

All in all, my health could be worse and I am happy that I still have a lot of my strength and capability.  So I hope that I continue to maintain my strength and I look forward to shrinking tumors.  I also look forward to getting my ass outside working on the yard/garden.  

Well, time to get my day started.

Love you all!