Yes, I have a giant box behind me. It is a new grill/smoker. I pulled the trigger on a Traeger. I want to make some smoked meat and get to grilling again. It has been a while since I didn't really use the other grills last summer. I had been afraid to make big purchases due to "what time I have left", but I am going to beat this shit just like chemo is beating my ass today. It is difficult to buy things as I have been trying to sit on money for Tiffany's sake. I get worried that I will go down hill fast (sometimes) and I don't want to burden her with too much debt that eats away at her retirement coverage. From my reading it is pretty common for cancer patients to avoid making large purchases for those very reasons. Cancer kind of puts your life on hold and in my case the bowel issues don't help with "living normal", but I think they are getting better (even though I shit myself on Wednesday - badly). I want to live life, but I don't...
I figure I can milk these Hawaiian songs for quite sometime. Especially, since I don't make posts as often. I mean, how many times can I tell you the same thing? Well, speaking of things, the tumors shrunk! This is good, means chemo is still having some effect on the cancer. Sometimes I wonder if my body is going to be able to handle it long enough. This last chemo cycle was hell! Well, I just wanted to say I love everybody and that the fight continues. I love you all!
I wonder if you all notice the Hue lights changing colors behind me. Today's theme is blue plane so I try to match the fireplace to the light theme. Fun stuff. Combined with my happy light I try to find things that make my spirts brighten or relax. I have been feeling really positive with hearing Sloan wants to do some further work other than just straight chemo. Every one I have read about the survived a similar diagnosis as me has had the same mental approach and some similar treatment paths that started with standard chemo and then some combination of new treatments and surgery. So I am keeping up my energy and my healthy eating to ensure that I am a candidate for whatever is coming in 2 months. My brain has been pretty foggy lately. I know that is the chemo, but I hate it. I pride myself on being witty and quick, but those thoughts seem slower lately. I have been doing an ok job with keeping the "there is no tumor" a...
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