I really have to get more sweatshirts. In a couple of days we will be heading back into NYC to get my liver ablated, again. This is the 3rd time. 3rd times a charm? I am not sure how I feel. I spent all day Sunday getting things done outside so I still can burst some energy out, but it leaves me exhausted. I don't have the energy I had just a few months. I have started another blog, but public - I am not sure why I am driven to do these things. I have always been an introvert with a need for attention I guess (it's strange, I know). Well, I don't have a lot to say this morning outside of the fact that I am beginning to realize that I spent way too much time in my life thinking about me and it is sad that it has taken me this long to realize that life is about everyone else. I love you all!
Well, finally in NYC for the liver ablation (this afternoon). Once again, I am hoping for 3rd times a charm. I wonder if we started this liver ablation sooner when the pump was still able to deliver chemo if it would have had better results. I suppose the fact that I am still kicking is still good results. Tiffany and I upgraded to the penthouse in our hotel. I know smell us, right? It would be nice if it was higher in the air, but it is still a pretty big room. Well it isn't really a room, it is an entry, living room, dining room, bedroom, bathroom, and kitchen, so it's a condo. I could live here. Hell, it is way bigger than my apartment in Hawaii. I wish we had more time to enjoy the city. We come up here for an appointment or a procedure and then right back to Erin. I have been out of vacation time at work for months so this is all time off without pay. Our world does not favor the sick. Honestly what nat...
I am glowing from the monitor light. I wonder how bad that much light has been for my eyes over the years? That made me laugh - like my monitor hurting my eyes is a concern right now. We leave for NYC, again, today. I think I mentioned in yesterday's post that this will be my 3rd ablation. So as the count goes: 2 port placements 3 ablations 2 major abdominal surgeries Colon/Liver resections Lymph node biopsies Hepatic pump placement Ileostomy and reversal The joys of liver drains 2 years and 10 months of chemo (with some breaks) - I've lost count. When I type it out like that it seems like I have been through some shit, but honestly all I feel is love. You all have been not only supportive, but you have been my world. I'm worried about this one. Some of it is that I haven't felt well and the other is that if they don't get it all this time or it comes back, I don't know what the next step is as I am exhausting my treatment options....
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