Hey there what's that sound... June 28, 2022

 

I suppose I am a bit distracted by the news as of late.  I have been concerned about our country going in the wrong direction (backwards), but this is all getting out of hand.  We had a president (I use the term lightly) that tried to stay in power after losing an election, a radical Christian movement that wants a suppressive society that controls people through their dogma (their interpretation of that dogma), and we are very much on the verge of violence between right wing and left wing states.  I am not sure how we got here - too much laissez-faire attitude with most people I guess.  Distracted by reality TV, media, social media, and their own pursuit of commercial gain.  Whatever it is, we are in a bad place.  If everyone just got off their lazy asses and voted we wouldn't be in such a bad place.l

On my treatment front, I am still waiting for my MRI pictures to get to Sloan so they can decide next steps.  This almost certainly puts me into another round or two of chemo.  I suppose as long as it continues to shrink tumors I am ok with that.  I am just so depressed around not feeling myself.  I really want to be happy and excited to help drive the rest of the house out of their funks, but I really can't get myself to that place.  Even stoned I am still too melancholy to get out of this depression funk.

The thing that keeps me going is how much I love Tiffany and my girls (and my family).  When I am better and I will be better.  I plan on being a better husband, father, son, and brother.  I realize that I have been somewhat self indulged.  I also just have an escapist personality.  I like to be alone so it doesn't help with things.

Well, need to get on the bike.

Love you all!