As I watch you move, across the moonlit room... October 12, 2022

 So no picture today as I am lying in bed in the hotel and Tiffany isn't up in yet.  New chemo made me pretty sick and it's the first time I've thrown up from nausea.  

The couldn't fill my liver pump due to elevated alkaline phosphate (ALK).  The oncologist says it's nothing to worry about as the last treatment added some toxicity to my liver.  So on steroids to help (which also fuck me up).

Tiffany continues to slog through this with me - she's amazing.

Well - not very motivated to post.


I love you all!

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