Lookin' back on the memory of the dance we shared - August 25, 2022

 

It is 6 days until surgery and I am starting to get a bit nervous about all the shit they are doing to me.  I am staying strong on the outside as I don't want Tiffany to know I am scared.  I have trust in the doctors as they do this regularly and I think I am in pretty good shape in relation to other patients.  

I've been thinking a lot about life lately.  The good and the bad always comes to mind and my mistakes along the way.  I was also thinking about cooking - yes cooking.  One of the things I have enjoyed the most in my life has been cooking for family.  I guess there is nothing more satisfying to me then providing my family with what they need and add a little spice.

Growing up (sorry mom), I didn't really understand how to make a meal full of flavor.  I liken it to a stuffed pepper full of white rice and a little red sauce.  There is a lot of green pepper, but the filling was bland.  I ate the filling (not the pepper back then), though it was filling it was missing something.  As I moved through life, my palate changed and I found spices!  I have spent a lot of time working on spice combinations, some work, some don't - just like life.

If I didn't do the things I did in life, I would have missed out on the best spice.  Every bad choice, every running away to far away places has led me to the most satisfying portion of my life - the last 22 years right back where it all started.  I'm not the guy I was when I left home in 1987.  I've learned a lot about love, loss, strength, sadness, joy, and commitment.  I look at those as the spices of live, like salt, we should be using more love, joy, and commitment.  The last 22 years have been love, joy, and commitment.  I couldn't be happier with who I am and who we are (family).  

Well, I have to get the day started.

Love you all!