Saturday, Saturday, Saturday - March 26, 2022

 


Yes, I know I have the same sweatshirt on again :) 

Yesterday was really good.  I worked all day, was able to stay focused, no dizzy spells, and I had an appetite! These are all good things!  It's days like that where I have the mindset that I can beat these things.  

I made the mistake of reading through the Sloan Kettering doctor's note.  I didn't realize how large my cancer tumors were until I read that.  No one had told me, they just said I had them.  That kind of scared me, but at the same time it made me realize how nice it is to know that I have that, but can still feel "almost" normal.  

I road the exercise bike for 20 straight minutes yesterday, that felt good as well.  The whole day just seemed better than I'd had in a long time.  

Somewhat selfish item, I really enjoy riding back and forth to work with Tiffany.  I know it is an annoyance for her, but I just like squeezing every minute I can with her.  Even if it is just sitting in the living room, being with her just seems right - it always has.  She is so cute, caring, and kind.  I am such a lucky individual.

I am going to try and play some games again tonight golf or bowling VR (maybe the Wii).  With chemo coming up next week, dragging the pump around prohibits some physical activity.  I suppose I should try to find something to do physically.  Walking will be good once it is warmer outside.

Well - it is time to get busy today (I actually have some work to do).

Love you all!

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