Spend all your time waiting for that second chance. February 21, 2023

 

My picture makes me seem not impressed, I am pretty ok with the day thus far.  I don't feel like I am getting enough sleep, but that may be because Nala keeps barking at 3:30 AM.  I suppose she is doing it because I get up at 3:00 AM like clockwork to dump the bag and use the loo.  

Things are going ok.  A lot of the time I am dizzy and lightheaded.  I don't know if it is chemo brain trying to keep me from thinking or if one of the many drugs I am taking is responsible for it.  Hell, maybe my blood pressure is going to low, who knows.  

I know that I currently dislike my job, my heart just isn't in it (I know I have mentioned this before).  I also don't know what I really want to do if I didn't do what I am doing.  Tiffany mentioned teaching and I would love that, but there just isn't enough money in it - not with what the girls need and the bills we have racked up.  It would be different if we sliding into retirement without all this cancer shit.

I got up late again today, but I am working from home so I can go and get some hydration that I hope will help me through until next week.  I won't be getting the irinotecan in the next treatment so maybe I won't run as watery, but I am not holding my breath on that.

Ok, I should get some work done and then get some breakfast.

Love you all!