I'm not sayin' that I love you... I'm not sayin' that I'll care if you love me... February 15, 2023
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I thought I would share a stare at the UV Happy Light. It is supposed to be 62 sunny and breezy (boo) today so I suspect I will be outside for some of it. It feels so good. I definitely suffer from season depression.
So yesterday Tiffany and I realized due to statements from the oncologist that yesterday's chemo could be the last chemo treatment. They may be able to get the liver cleaned out and I do not believe they feel there is cancer any where else in my body. I am trying not be too ecstatic about it or overly terrified that the liver will not be addressable when they get in there. I would take the two surgery path if necessary, but getting it all in one would be amazing. With the pump, ileostomy, and all cancer gone, I could get myself back on a road to normalcy. I will have lots of recovery, they are reconnecting things, disconnecting things and moving stuff around in my insides. I think by late summer I will be back to my normal self to some extent.
I really can't believe that I could be getting more time with Tiffany. I know from the way I feel now that if we kept with treatments, I would probably make several more years on maintenance therapy. However, I want that shit out of me.
Looking forward to the last chemo week for a while - what comes next is worse.
I love you all!
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