Stuck inside these four walls - September 6, 2022

 

So I may get out of the hospital today.  Still feeling a little weak, but getting better daily.  It's hard to get comfortable after your insides get open.  

The has been a demeaning experience as I don't like being weak.  I do feel it has taught me to be strong about all of this, more so than I already was.

I need to eat my breakfast.

I love you all!


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