Isn't it rich... August 19, 2023
Wow, August 19th. Nearly a year since 1st surgery and I am still going strong. I was so scared a year ago, and I still am. Every pain, every lightheadedness, every ailment, scares me into thinking that I don't have a lot of time, but I have to think about where I am and how I felt before. I am not much different than I was a year ago. I will take stability. My worry is how much more my body can handle of chemo. My blood tests were not so hot this last time around. I may need to lay off the sugars again and start eating healthier - and the alcohol. I started living like I used to as I really don't think it has much of an impact all things considered. For God's sake I have heavy metal poisoning every two weeks.
Other than the shit above, I think things are doing ok. I get a little pain in my side, but I am pretty certain that is my bowels which are improving some. Again, I worry too much that I am developing new rectal/colon cancers, but I don't know if I am or not so I should stop worrying about the unknown. We will get some more insight at the end of the month scans so I should just keep plugging along until I know for sure where I am and what the next plan is. I'd like a chemo break, but I'll keep going if I have to. I want to win.
Typing I want to win made me think. I have won and I know that. I have the love of a wonderful woman, two great kids, and a life that I think most would be jealous of (minus the cancer). I have keep remembering that I have been blessed and that this is just a bump in what has been an amazing road and will continue to be.
Well, I think I will go pick up the dog shit so I can mow later :)
I love you all!
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