I don't know why I love her like I do... September 22, 2023


 So I got up after 6 AM, so this will be quick.  I am feeling a bit better as we move towards treatment week.  Not 100%, but better.  There is so much to do in the AM - plants, animals, coffee.

How do people do all the things necessary for a home etc..?  there is literally no time to relax.

I love you all!

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