I really have to get more sweatshirts. In a couple of days we will be heading back into NYC to get my liver ablated, again. This is the 3rd time. 3rd times a charm? I am not sure how I feel. I spent all day Sunday getting things done outside so I still can burst some energy out, but it leaves me exhausted. I don't have the energy I had just a few months. I have started another blog, but public - I am not sure why I am driven to do these things. I have always been an introvert with a need for attention I guess (it's strange, I know). Well, I don't have a lot to say this morning outside of the fact that I am beginning to realize that I spent way too much time in my life thinking about me and it is sad that it has taken me this long to realize that life is about everyone else. I love you all!
Tiffany is amazing! I know that she doesn't feel well as she has an infection in her kidney due to her stones. She continues to take care of me regardless. In the morning, I am generally able to get around without issue (except for the pain in my side), but by afternoon I am generally really tired. More tired than you should be from just sitting around. Eating zaps every bit of strength out of me for some reason leaving me extremely lightheaded. I try to hide how bad I am feeling after eating as I know it upsets her. I have a lot of hope about upcoming treatment. I expect to start on chemo as everything I read suggests they won't go after the tumors in my liver via surgery. What I fear is that if the chemo doesn't slow the progression of the liver metastatic disease that I will get real sick in the coming year. I had an ultrasound a year ago that didn't show any lesions on the liver and a year later I have several. Hopefu...
Well, finally in NYC for the liver ablation (this afternoon). Once again, I am hoping for 3rd times a charm. I wonder if we started this liver ablation sooner when the pump was still able to deliver chemo if it would have had better results. I suppose the fact that I am still kicking is still good results. Tiffany and I upgraded to the penthouse in our hotel. I know smell us, right? It would be nice if it was higher in the air, but it is still a pretty big room. Well it isn't really a room, it is an entry, living room, dining room, bedroom, bathroom, and kitchen, so it's a condo. I could live here. Hell, it is way bigger than my apartment in Hawaii. I wish we had more time to enjoy the city. We come up here for an appointment or a procedure and then right back to Erin. I have been out of vacation time at work for months so this is all time off without pay. Our world does not favor the sick. Honestly what nat...
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