I will be honest, I don't feel like typing this morning. No so much anything to do with the cancer, but more so the last day of the first week back to work, dogs think that I am going to give them treats all the time in the morning for some reason so they harass me constantly. I mean what are they thinking, I can't reward that naughty behavior so they aren't going to get a treat at all. Horrible puppy catch 22... Either way, other than being tired and having some lightheaded issues I have felt pretty good. I am quite confident that my night cramping issue is dehydration and lack of nutrients (calcium, magnesium, potassium) so I have started to supplement them and last night I had one cramp on the bottom of my foot only so that is improvement. Off to make some breakfast... Love you all!
Yes, I have a giant box behind me. It is a new grill/smoker. I pulled the trigger on a Traeger. I want to make some smoked meat and get to grilling again. It has been a while since I didn't really use the other grills last summer. I had been afraid to make big purchases due to "what time I have left", but I am going to beat this shit just like chemo is beating my ass today. It is difficult to buy things as I have been trying to sit on money for Tiffany's sake. I get worried that I will go down hill fast (sometimes) and I don't want to burden her with too much debt that eats away at her retirement coverage. From my reading it is pretty common for cancer patients to avoid making large purchases for those very reasons. Cancer kind of puts your life on hold and in my case the bowel issues don't help with "living normal", but I think they are getting better (even though I shit myself on Wednesday - badly). I want to live life, but I don't...
I figure I can milk these Hawaiian songs for quite sometime. Especially, since I don't make posts as often. I mean, how many times can I tell you the same thing? Well, speaking of things, the tumors shrunk! This is good, means chemo is still having some effect on the cancer. Sometimes I wonder if my body is going to be able to handle it long enough. This last chemo cycle was hell! Well, I just wanted to say I love everybody and that the fight continues. I love you all!
Comments