Of all the money that e're I had I spent. I spent it in good company... March 3, 2023

So I am still having some stomach issues.  My PCP took me off the new drug I was taking for diabetes and I do suspect that is the issue.  However, I did notice an entire pill (unfortunately, no markings) in my ostomy bag.  I suspect it is the Centrum pill as I hadn't seen my Metformin in the bag (those are shaped about the same).  There is also a good chance those pills have gotten clogged up in my intestine.  

I have to admit that I am terrified that all these stomach issues, face flushing, heat flashes, etc... are all indicative of some spread of cancer.  I wonder if I will spend the rest of my life worried that my cancer has spread every time I have some pain, illness, or other ailment.  It is truly exhausting.

I promise tomorrow morning I will get stoned and write something a bit less depressing.

Oh of all the money that e're I spent
I spent it in good company
and of all the harm that e're Ive done
alas it was to none but me
for all I've done for want of wit
to mem'ry now I can't recall
so fill to me the parting glass
good night and joy be with you all

Oh if I had money enough to spend
and leisure time to sit awhile
there is a fair maid in this town
and she surely has my heart beguiled
her rosey cheeks, her ruby lips
I own she has my heart enthralled
so fill to me the parting glass
good night and joy be with you all

Oh of all the comrades that e're I've had
they are sorry for my going away
and of all the sweethearts that e're I've had
they would wish me one more day to stay
but since it falls unto my lot
that I should rise and you should not
I'll gently rise and softly call
good night and joy be with you all