I wonder, wonder who, who-oo-ooh, who... November 15, 2024
So, I have a full beard. I didn't plan on doing no-shave November, but I was too lazy to shave and honestly wasn't taking very good care of myself. So, I have a full beard. I also have hair on the side of my head and I am amazed how red it still is.
All that aside, I wonder how I feel. I know that sounds funny, but it is hard to understand whether my ills are mental (depression, fear, anxiety), age issues (bad back, etc), or something to do with my cancer. The last 3 years have aged me as well as my family.
I have dropped off of social media as I just find it to be a distraction and "something to do". I let those services drive into my ADHD/hyper activity and when I want to be distracted or avoid my work, there it is ready to waste hours of my time.
You may ask, what am I doing with that time - nothing. That isn't all true, I have focused a little more at work, I setup an AI system, etc...
Things in the house are ok, I feel like I have locked everyone into the doldrums that I am in. I guess we are all in this boat together. I say, "I wish we could do more", but the honest item here is what would I truly be doing? It is a really good question. To be honest, my life has been a series of drinking too much (especially prior to Tiffany and I getting back together).
I need to start getting myself in a good place for the holidays. Maybe after this next procedure (next week).
Well, time to start getting ready for work.
I love you all!
As a side note: I read my last post before this one and let's just say - I am in the same place :)
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