I know you wanna leave me... July 22, 2024


 The morning sun rise is getting pretty close to 6 AM.  The dreaded end of summer is coming and it makes me sad.  How did it get to be the end of July?  

I just started to feel a bit better and of course it is time for chemo again.  I am terrified that the chemo is no longer working, but I won't know until late next week as next scans are up.  I think all in all we removed on treatment cycle, but we dropped the pump as it would seem that the chemo was injuring my liver to a point that it is counter productive I guess.  The oncologist commented in his notes that a continued reduction in dosage is not possible as we already have a low dose.

Things in the house are going well.  I keep thinking we should be doing more "fun" things, but then I don't know what those are.  I mean I still have to work full time and then we travel to NJ every two weeks, so when would I be doing anything fun.  Takes a good 7 days to recover from chemo, then it is right back at it after one weekend of break.  Maybe some have a more adventurous spirit/life than me, but I am pretty good sitting out here on my deck with my pups, listening to the birds, and Handel's Water Music.  

My test gardening is mixed results this year.  I really wanted to do lots of salsa peppers, but none of the seeds came up.  I am going to do some tests this winter in the tents and see what I get.  However, the grapes seem to have recovered well, the blackberries are great, the raspberries may actually give fruit this year, and the weed is banging.  So, I got all that going from me.  The main thing is the weed.  I really do use all of that.


Well, it is time to get the day going.

I love you all!


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