Pennsylvania 6-5000... April 9, 2025

 


Well, it's funny because today, I actually feel better than I have in weeks.  I'm not certain why, but I will take it.

My tumors grew slightly.  My oncologist gave me the choice to continue chemo or continue my break and we think it is time to get back on the juice.  I still have hope that I will beat this thing, but I fear it is going to do me in as well.  Most days my insides hurt and I wonder if others that don't have my ability to ignore pain would be as functional as I am.

Either way, I continue to persevere and that is due to all the support I get at home.  My wife is fucking amazing.

I just thought I would check in.  With summer coming I will be out of my stupid funk that winter throws me into and maybe being active will help me feel more energetic (I know it will).

Well, back to work.

I love you all!

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