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Well, I am still kicking.  Four years in...  I can't say that I am not getting tired and sicker than I was, but nothing I can't handle.  I took some disability for this last chemo cycle, I just can't seem to get my brain to work.  Just typing this little post has my head hurting.

With that said, I am still kicking, chemo sucks, and Tiffany is awesome sauce.

I love you all!

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