Never been this blue... June 12, 2025


I'm actually not blue, but that is the first line to Stand Tall, by Burton Cummings.  Heard it yesterday and so it is stuck in my head.

Things have been going, okay.  I don't like chemo and sometimes I feel like I am wasting away, but I'm not giving up.  Even on the days I feel my worst, I am at least walking the yard and checking on the gardens.  They have been coming along well and it is looking like we might get a lot of grapes this year.  

All in all, I could be in a worse place.

I need to get all the way to work (which is just switching browsers).

I love you all!

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