Somewhere Between a Monkey and a Man

 You probably can't tell, but I am shrinking.  If you find a picture of me in that same sweatshirt from 2 years ago, it is quite noticeable.  All in all, I am still doing alright... considering.  Chemo is kicking my ass hard, but I get about 3 days where I feel good enough to get stuff done.  The 3 to 4 rough days of chemo is painful, but I try to focus on getting through.  Speaking of chemo, today is chemo day (joy joy).   Tiffany is so amazing about taking care of me, I don't know how she does it all. Well, I am going to pretend to work for a bit, then head out to the hospital. I love you all!

 Well, May 13 - I made another spring, suck that life.  I will admit things are getting hard.  My insides hurt most of the time, the chemo is starting to really kick the shit out of my ability to think, but I persevere. Honestly, I am in the middle of a chemo treatment, 2 of what I think is 6 or at least 5 treatments.  We are hoping this shrinks everything that started growing, giving me more time. There just isn't enough time, seriously. Gusty had baby number 2 (Declan Micheal - yes, I meant that ;) ).  He is so beautiful.  I worry that her children won't know me, just like I didn't know my grandfather.  This makes me sad. Somedays, it just feels like I am going through the motions of living.  I think that makes sense right?  I mean especially during this chemo thing, I can't really do much, I spend most of the time stoned and out of it to keep from feeling like shit.  Sometimes, I think it is just my head and others, I know that shit i...