Somewhere Between a Monkey and a Man

 So, I tried to rescue the rabbit from the dogs, but Bear had already broken it's back or neck with the shaking.  It is so upsetting and when I get one dog off, the other runs at it.  I finally got them inside, but it was too late for the bunny.  It makes me so sad and ruins my morning to be honest.  I had been so enjoying my morning walks.  My guess is the bunny was living under the deck, came out and couldn't find a way back in.  I need to close off the whole thing to try and stop that.  The dogs are really good at cornering the rabbit, but I guess it is in their nature right? I start chemo back up this week (I think).  It has been a really long time (since August).  I am not looking forward to it, but I need it unfortunately.  I have 4 new tumors in my abdomen (on lymph nodes) and a couple new ones in my liver.  The chemo has worked before, but I am concerned.  I am keeping my can't stop me attitude, but lately, I have ...

  Well, it's funny because today, I actually feel better than I have in weeks.  I'm not certain why, but I will take it. My tumors grew slightly.  My oncologist gave me the choice to continue chemo or continue my break and we think it is time to get back on the juice.  I still have hope that I will beat this thing, but I fear it is going to do me in as well.  Most days my insides hurt and I wonder if others that don't have my ability to ignore pain would be as functional as I am. Either way, I continue to persevere and that is due to all the support I get at home.  My wife is fucking amazing. I just thought I would check in.  With summer coming I will be out of my stupid funk that winter throws me into and maybe being active will help me feel more energetic (I know it will). Well, back to work. I love you all!